It seems that wherever we turn, we are confronted by a world in disintegration, with little rationality or compassion. Human rights are at the bottom of most countries agendas. At the end of 2020, The Top 10 Human Rights Abusers, according to the UN Watch List, are China at number one, followed by Iran, Cameroon, Venezuela, Saudia Arabia, Zimbabwe, Cuba, Turkey, North Korea and Russia. Very few countries get a clean bill of health!

Evolving into selfless, loving and compassionate beings is not the only challenge humanity faces. In 1812 there were 1 billion people on the planet; in 1912, it was 1.5 billion, and just over 100 years later, we are heading quickly towards 8 billion. It is not simply the human world that is in trouble; the planet is in danger too. We have in our power the destruction of all civilization, including the Earth. 

So a change has to come, not just to the political & economic system; these are an absolute necessity, but a shift in the mindset of humanity. The retrieval of the ancient wisdom of the Buddha is not a question of relevance anymore; it’s a question of human survival.

Through all the news footage and social media posts, I find myself asking what I need to do to ensure my children and future generations have a life here on planet Earth.  As a child, I grew up in a dairy and beef farming community,  enjoying holidays fishing off the Cornish Coast while being reared on the results of fresh milk, meat, and fish. Last week, I was shocked to discover that producing 1 gallon of milk takes approximately 1000 gallons of water, and a 1 Ib beef steak requires 2000 gallons of water to produce.  At first, the figures seemed excessive, and as always, there is much-opposing data out there on the web. But probing further, they take in the whole life cycle, including rainfall, to grow the fodder eaten.  I also came across a recent 4-year study of sea life suggesting that through overfishing, the oceans will be empty by 2048. Scary stuff!

Some see the way out as ignorance. Let’s pretend it isn’t happening and make the most of the resources left, whereas others believe that we can resolve the crisis that we face as humankind. Human beings have overcome adversity many times before. Yet, we as humans only began to develop into what we were today 12,000 years ago; we have come nowhere close to solving our afflictions during this time. We want more, and we want bigger and better. We want to fulfill our insatiable inner desires, and as we witness, it affects our personal and professional lives, the realms of international business and politics. Global conflict and warfare are rife, and the destruction of our environment results from our corporate and political greed.

Zen Buddhism identifies greed, hatred and delusion as Three Poisons, for which the Sanskrit translation is the Three Unwholesome Roots. I like the root analogy as we all have these character flaws, and for me, without a doubt, they are the root of suffering and pain.

Greed refers to our selfishness, attachment, and grasping for happiness outside of ourselves. Hatred reflects our anger, aversion and repulsion towards what we perceive as unpleasant circumstances and uncomfortable feelings. Delusion points us towards our bewilderment with the world and wrong views of reality. These three poisons manifest into nonmoral and inept thoughts, speech, and actions, causing much suffering and unhappiness for ourselves and others. The three are deeply embedded in the conditioning of our personalities, and our behaviour is habitually influenced and tainted by these unwholesome roots buried deep into our bodies.

The work of transformation is not a swift process, even though we may demand quick results. This work requires what I call the 4P’s, i.e. the daily Practice of turning up on the mat, Patience to witness our habitual unwinding, Persistence to overcome obstacles on the path, and the Perseverance to pass what we perceive as the end. We also need to throw in a bit of deep compassion for ourselves and others—the aim to liberate ourselves from obscuring the clarity, joy and radiance of our natural enlightenment.
This transformation is the work of the Zen Leader and begins with the challenge of calming the mind and seeing deeply into ourselves. In other words, to eliminate greed, hatred, and delusion, we must first learn to recognize them as they appear. Through zazen and hara breathing, we discern how these deep-seated characteristics influence our thoughts, feelings, speech, and actions. This awareness, this seeing deeply into ourselves, is the beginning of our ability to transform not only ourselves but the world in which we live.

Last Autumns Leaves


This week there has been a feeling of strange energy, something like sitting in a waiting room at a train station and having faith the train will arrive, yet enough doubt to cause unease. I mention this in our Zen community What’s App to see if others in the group have the same sense. This morning after Zazen, it comes up again, everyone agreeing it has been an odd week. We talk of winter’s transition to Spring and the current cold weather forcing nature to wait before bursting forth. The warm spell that we enjoyed in the last couple of days of February disappearing, winter determined not to let up just yet! This year’s Spring is different, as it waits to burst forth; we too are at the mercy of the forces. We sit patiently waiting for vaccines to take effect and the death toll to fall, urgent in the desire to return to our cycle of normality.

I wander into Coventry City Centre, taking some exercise trying to escape the Lockdown. It is cold, the sky overcast, the buildings looking drab and grey. The square empty, shutters down, a homeless woman sitting hunched between two doorways, pushing her Starbucks cup at me and gazing hopefully, passers-by few and far between. There it is again, hanging in the air, just out in front of me unseen a sort of anticipation, I can’t see it, but I can sense it, something waiting to happen. And from that emptiness, a glimmering light, the sound of drilling, a man emerges his fluorescent yellow jacket contrasting the day. A woman smiles, sweeping the winters debris from behind stacked chairs of the next door cafe. A gang of painters sing across the square as they refresh a shopfront, three doors away, ‘Top Shop’ stands lonely, sad and forsaken, nature leaving nothing untouched.

I keep leaning into the week, attentive, listening deeply, before I am brought face to face with Ryokan, a Zen Master and hermit, famous for his calligraphy and poetry. A survivor of the Cholera Pandemic sweeping Asia in 1820, he speaks to me!

When Spring arrives

From every tree tip

Flowers will bloom,

But those children

Who fell with last autumn’s leaves

Will never return.


Today’s Purpose


It’s Saturday, and I awoke this morning to a thought, having no idea where it came from. Generally, as I open my eyes in the dark and stretch out my legs and back under the duvet, my thoughts are about should I or shouldn’t get up. I am an early riser doing a combination of practices, Yoga, Chanting, Qigong, which is split at 6 am with 30 minutes of Online Zazen. This morning was different. As I opened my eyes, my voice was there right at the front of my forehead, asking me as clear as a whistle, ‘What do I want to get out of today?’ This type of thought is pretty rare for me, the kind of question I hate if asked by trainers on self-development programmes. I am not the type of person whose to-do lists and goals come quickly, and I don’t fall into bed at night thinking not to sleep if I haven’t completed all my tasks.

Laying in the darkness, the question was so luminous that I had to offer some sort of response. I repeated the question to myself, What do I want out of today? My stomach sinks into the mattress, a reluctance swamping me, a weight keeping me pinned to the bed, a list appearing in my mind, an endless archive fading into the darkness. The clock has run down, and it was time to get up and go with the day and see what it presents. The problem is that the question doesn’t reseed. It hangs around for much of my morning practice; finally, a moment of lucidity appearing during Zazen. ‘What do I want to get out of today?’. I want to spend several hours with the kids giving them my full attention. I want to speak to my Mum on a zoom call and give her my full attention. In fact, what is crystal clear isn’t the need to just be with the kids or listen to Mum; as I usually do, flicking through my phone or sipping my coffee, it is something way beyond. A feeling of completeness, a wholeness that would allow me to evaporate and for them to absorb my consciousness, feeding and thriving, taking what they need. What I want to get out of today is not only to give but to give unconditionally in a way that is rarely possible in a world of distraction. Wow, so simple, so easy, so much fun; play with the kids and enjoy a conversation with Mum. That’s what I want from today.

Great Faith, Great Doubt, Great Determination


I have spent the last few days listening to ‘The Long Quiet Road’ by Natalie Goldberg. I came across her book whilst searching for help with writing styles. Natalie Goldberg was a student of Katagiri Roshi, a Japanese Zen master who originally travelled from Japan to teach at the SFZC, and later establishing the Minnesota Zen Centre. The book is a moving tale about their relationship as Teacher and Student, which takes us beyond Katagiri Roshi’s death. In the book’s first few pages, she tells the story of ‘The Mountain Monks’ a sect of monks in Japan who run a thousand marathons up and down Mount Hehi over seven years to obtain Buddhahood. The monks complete each of the 22-mile circuits on pain of death, carrying a razor-sharp blade to take their life should they fail.

I have a simple task in comparison; at least that is how it looks on the outside. All I have to do is complete a book, something that has been sitting at the back of my mind for six years. But all is not as it seems, and in the last couple of months, the book writing process as I saw it had turned itself on its head, and I am writing this to make some sense of what’s occurring, within me. I recognise that the book I set out to write is no longer the book I am writing, having a will of its own, taking over my scribing, often bearing no resemblance to my intention. Urgency and motivation have also appeared from nowhere, something that previously was a struggle is now a stream. I find myself leaping from bed at 4 am or writing into the night to finish a passage. The book appears to have decided ‘IT NEEDS TO BE WRITTEN’.

I am in the arena standing on the field gun’s drag ropes, flanked by seventeen men their lives depending upon me and mine upon theirs. There is a buzz, twenty thousand onlookers exuding an electrical pulse, illuminating the gladiators in the pit as they elude death with the oneness of precision timing and drill. The bugle sounds, the fizz as the Battery Officer lights the thunder flash to start the run, my arms tense, and the drag ropes strain. BANG! I disappear gone, committed the fate of three years devotion, to my master and teacher, my fate condensed into three weeks of competition, the toughest team sport in the world, defeat is not an option.

The book is a vision so clear it scares me, the colossal effort and reverence putting fear into my belly. I know this journey is beyond all others, crossing the bottomless chasm no escape. Instead, free-falling into its dark depths, as I plummet towards the abyss, resisting anything and everything that will pull me from the agonising path. I must dedicate myself, the only way I know how, saturation, drowning in my writing, absorption so complete, form to formless and formless to form. No Flying Angel’s, no Marathon Monks, it’s 3.51 am, fingers tap the keyword words pour onto the screen, somewhere in the dark expanse no end in sight.

Please Do Not Feed The Fears


As the full impact of Covid19 began to hit globally back in early February, it came as a realisation that leaders who have attended the Institute for Zen Leadership, learning ‘The Ten Flips’ of the Zen Leader were in an excellent position to deal with what was arising. It was as if the moment for Zen Leadership had arrived.

Think of business leaders you know or you’ve seen in the media, who are seizing opportunities and growing as a result, and who is struggling? Which organisations have the agility to learn from the current situation, adapt and thrive, and which have been unable to turn their ships around?

One of the mantras we teach zen leaders is “Live like a ball on fast-moving waters”. This analogy helps leaders to shift from focusing and worrying about external forces they can’t control and instead let go and place their efforts on their internal power. Covid19 is an excellent example as we have seen world leaders being swept downstream on fast-moving waters trying to fight the virus, instead of letting go and working with it, not against it. As Covid 19 has highlighted, it is essential not to become stuck, expecting a return to what we thought as ‘normal’. This invisible, deadly virus has spread fear throughout the world, at the same time as flipping us into a new reality, grounding the entire global airline industry, shutting borders, and causing the most significant worldwide economic downturn ever seen.

The speed with which we can accept what seems to be catastrophic circumstances, the quicker we can see the opportunity and full potential at that moment. Acceptance is not only the beginning ‘Flip’ for the Zen Leader but also the first sign of transformative energy. It doesn’t mean we have to like what we’re dealing with, but it means we don’t become stuck in whether we like it or not, we work with it. As soon as acceptance starts working, it opens up the possibility of further transformation.

Zen Leaders, rather than allowing the pressure to drain their energy, use it to propel their development and ‘Lead the Way’ creating a better world and manifesting a radically new consciousness. These leaders lead beyond their egos and attract the future with joy and enthusiasm. Being able to build and align energy is a foundational tool for sustainable leadership, and ‘Flip Two’ allows the Zen Leader to ease out of ‘Tension’ that holds back growth and into ‘Extension’ the home of opportunity. In this process, the three laws of energy management are a vital resource, the first of which is ‘Rhythm, not relentless’. The Zen Leader understands that this new consciousness emerges in waves, a rhythm of increasing effect and endurance, and becomes skilled at sensing and matching this rhythm and building out from here. We see this with Covid19 as a second wave begins to circulate the globe. The creation of methods that can come and go with each wave of the virus, such as social distancing, wearing masks and testing & trace systems, allows governments to align their energy and vision with a way of working that is intrinsical to the virus, not against it. The Zen leader sees these measures as merely part of the rippling path that lies ahead and continues without resistance.

We develop this rhythm further with Flip 3 by learning to shift from coming to going and going to coming, the art being to identify measures on both sides that tell us when to move. So in the case of a lockdown, the flow becomes going into lockdown, (we have tested and can see the data showing an increase in the virus) and coming out of lockdown, (the data is showing a reduction in the virus spreading). As time passes ease comes into the flow of back and forth allowing us to work with both poles of the paradox and in doing so reaching a higher-level goal, which in these times may be a more sustainable economic model.

Covid19 also demonstrates that we cannot always control what happens to us, but we can forever control our response to it. In Flip 4 the Zen Leader must sincerely inquire into how we play into the situations we face, and what they relate to in us; is our response aggravating, or maybe even building, a position or are we supporting the transformation out of it.” We can ask ourselves ‘What do I fear in this situation?’ Inquiring deeply into this question is to find the root of those fears. Positive, go-getting people may at first think they don’t fear anything, but becoming stuck and not being able to move forward is evidence of fear itself. We know that fear attacks in the dark, and once we begin to discover the root and see our fears, they can no longer get all of us. The good news is that by shining the light of awareness on these, we know the fear is not itself afraid. As Franklin Roosevelt said ‘We have nothing to fear but fear itself”. The Zen Leaders core practice to build this awareness is sitting meditation. Sitting still with all our senses open, we cultivate a condition of complete relaxation and complete awareness, inside and out, all at the same time. Once we claim our power, we’re able to move into it and stand ‘on top’ of the fear. Emanating energy from ‘in here’ and transforming the situation, or problem ‘out there’.

This thread of awareness is a continuing theme through the training and practices of the Zen Leader. Flip 5 builds both self-awareness and understanding of others, taking us, ‘From the ability to Play to Your Strengths whilst Strengthening Your Play’, by utilising a psychometric assessment based on four patterns of energy that show up in our bodies. Awareness in our body gives us conscious access to more of its moving parts and the ability to use and flip us between the energy patterns of Driver, Organiser, Collaborator, and Visionary. That’s why mindfulness in the body is the foundation of training in any martial art or sport, as well as dance, yoga, music, physical therapy and many other forms. This awareness and ability to use physical movement to change our energy pattern allows us to field our best player, pulling up what we call for in the moment rather than a static habitual pattern in which we are stuck and doesn’t serve us. What may have been a winning combination in the pre-Covid19 world may no longer hold true in the Covid19 reality that we currently live.

As the Zen Leader develops using the tools and practices, the capability arises to explore the remaining five flips. These take the Zen Leader ‘From Controlling to Connecting’, ‘From Driving Results to Attracting the Future’, ‘From Its All About Me to I’m All About It’, ‘From Local Self to Whole Self’, and ‘From Delusion to Awakening’. Those who strive for control, and attempt to control their world, going from Controlling to Connecting find freedom, opening up vast new territory for having a broader, more sustainable impact in the world. Those who move ‘From Driving Results to Attracting the Future’ by living in the present, and learning the art of less is more, begin to connect more., and ‘From Its All About Me to I’m All About It’, takes the Zen Leader deep into the realms of how can I serve the situation. The final two flips the ‘Whole Self is Revealed’ widening our net beyond what the mind alone can conceive, and we move ‘From Delusion to Awakening’ discovering a place of stillness in which I and all things arise.

There are no short cuts to the bigness of the Zen Leader, and flipping your world into a new reality of limitless possibilities is only achieved with practice. The key to this practice is returning again and again and doing so with joy and enthusiasm.

Euphoria Explodes


I witness the city awakening from my mountain top,

Forty floors below Ho Chi Minh sighs,

The cacophony of an ocean arouses my senses, 

no sea to be seen, the city stirs,

I sit in stillness,

Seconds become minutes, minutes become hours,

Stillness so profound and rooted it touches the creator,

Piercing boundless intelligence,

No city, no mountain, no ocean, no self,

Out of nothing a breath stirs a tidal force flows outward,

Grace rides the wave,

Beauty beyond all beauty,

Euphoria explodes, joy spreads, bliss prevails.

#zen #yoga #bliss #euphoria #joy #selfless #truenature #buddha #buddhism #rinzai #soto #vietnam #hochiminhcity

Expect but don’t Expect



We want things to happen, but they don’t, 

We don’t want things to happen, but they do,

When the don’t comes with do, 

Or the do comes with don’t,

We stamp our feet and shout out loudly, why me!

Tantrum time is here again, anger rising quicker than lighting,

In a flash smooth to rough, calm to chaos, serene to outrage,

Temper runs rampant, like the winds of the ocean,

The storm rages, crashing into everything and one in its path, 

Exhausted the tempest finally gives way,

Disappearing as quickly as it arose, 

Yet leaving the scars of uprooted trees, broken branches and landscapes changed,

Oh for the anger of the storm,

Take heed before setting our sail, and leaving the shore,

Prepare through practice and sit with Anatman,

Emotions still ignite, the ocean will ripple, 

but now the gust dissipates into stillness, 

the inhale turns to exhale,

Expect but don’t expect

#zen #yoga #buddha #buddhism #rinzai #yogateacher #truenature #selfless #livelife #anger #stress #emotions #psychology

In Buddhism, the term Anatta (Pali) or Anatman (Sanskrit) refers to the doctrine of the “non-self”, that there is no unchanging, permanent self, soul or essence in living beings.

Thank you Gordon Hakuun Greene Zen Master & Head Priest of Spring Green Dojo, Wisconsin, for this life-changing teaching, Expect but don’t Expect!


Somebody to Nobody


The journey to be somebody starts the day we are born,

So much hope to become somebody,

My mum and dad, my granny and grandad, my aunts and uncles, my teachers and friends,

Oh how wonderful to be somebody,

I strive so hard, I toil day and night, I sweat blood and tears,

And wow, I am becoming somebody,

But not the somebody I was yesterday,

And not the somebody I will be tomorrow,

That other somebody.

On my god, who is this somebody I need to be,

I am a fool, I am an idiot, I walk the path of delusion,

Everybody trying to be somebody,

Oh my god, how my somebody laughs,

As everybody struggles to be somebody,

Who cares about my somebody,

Oh my god, stop, look, listen,

I already am, I always have been,

Just be nobody and become everybody.

It is nobody that’s what I must become,

Aborting my life long hike to be somebody,

A new adventure towards being nobody,

Cutting away every last piece of somebody,

Enjoying the game of hide and seek,

Cut the flesh, chop away the bone, I’m getting warmer,

The truth is close, where is somebody now,

I find nobody here I find nobody there,

Yah its nobody yet everybody the coolest person in town.

#zen #rinzai #yoga #yogateacher #lovelife #buddhism #buddha #truenature #selfless #nobody #somebody #cornwall #livelife #death

The Obstacle Is The Path


The boulder blocks the way; the landslide blocks the road, the flood cuts off the path,

When has there not been an obstacle that obstructs our passage through life,

Our shoots have grown tall, and we stand straight while gravity pulls us down,

How would life exist if not for the path of calamity,

Man creates his obstructions; he makes his own obstacles and misfortune,

We close our heart to block the way, we let the wandering mind block the road, we abuse our bodies and cut our path,

There are things that we do not control and there are things that we do,

It’s for sure that adversity and stress are here to stay they are going nowhere,

Embrace them like a long lost friend, love them with your heart,

We have climbed to the highest peaks, and crossed the deepest oceans to look adversity in the face to test our human condition,

The things that hurt us are the things that project us forward to new ways of being,

The deeper the hurting, the greater the learning,

Follow the path of our ancestors, those who have walked before us, famine, flood, and plague, have stared them in the eye, and they have overcome,

Use adversity, and stress, as the opportunity to see no good or bad, accept they are what they are, live now, not yesterday, not tomorrow, now.

#zen #yoga #yogateacher #tao #buddha #truenature #trueself #lovelife #livelife #focus #adversity #stress

Put Down Our Load & Stand Straight




Our desire for connection starts with mum.
It begins for us in her womb, gravity pulling us downwards until we drop earthbound.
Our breath rushing in to fill our tiny lungs, our umbilical tie severed.
We are Unattached yet attached now it’s the breast that we cling.

And so it begins, our journey of attachment.
We clutch, we grasp, we grip, we hoard, we collect, we acquire, we possess, we hang on to.
Like glue, we stick to our baggage, and with all its heaviness, we haul it through life.
Dragging it towards our death, the moment when we can finally wave our goodbye, the ultimate letting go.

Why wait until the dark shadow haunts us?
Dare we let go now, disengage, unattached, drop everything.
How few things can we possess,
How little can we cherish,
How light can we live,
We only lose to what we cling.

Put down our load, and stand straight,
Let gravity take our breath down to the depths of humanity,
Again and again, feel into the nonsensical nature of everything.
Then again bend down and pick up our load, stand straight and off we go.
The bag is light, and there is joy in every step.
Oh, we laugh so loud at everything that restrains us.

#yoga #yogi #zen #meditation #mindfulness #zazen #enlightenment #love #compassion #buddha #buddhism #wayhome #tao #theway